Time to refocus

Sometimes my mind spins in circles and I want to lash out and scream! In these times I have to remind myself to

STOP,

BE STILL

and

REMEMBER WAHT I KNOW TO BE TRUE.

For whatever reason sometimes, yes sometimes I ignore this tried and true pattern and avoid being an adult.

I am doing this right now.

I feel uneasy, frustrated and lost. It actually fells like my heart is going to burst and not in the good way.

SO I am going to be a big girl and put in the work . I am going to STOP running on the perpetual treadmill of life and take time to feel what is inside of me.

• I am feeling anxious- school starts next week and I don’t feel ready. I am nervous for my boys. I am ready but not ready.
• Summer is coming to an end which means I HAVE to get back into a regular routine. I hate and love routines!
• I have been so wild in my spending habits! I need to pull in the reins and hold myself accountable for what I am buying and spending
• I have a lot of shame associated with how late I have been getting up this last month and how much time I have wasted.
• I want to get all my classes scheduled for this fall season but don’ exactly know which direction I want to go in.
• I wan’t to move forward on some ideas but feel nervous and just want to hide

THIS IS WHAT I KNOW TO BE TRUE

• I am capable of anything I feel passionate about
• I need to make things fun for me to be engaged
• I need accountability
• I need connection
• I need spiritual connection with God and those around me
• I am enough

PROMPTINGS FROM GOD

• Digitize Ben’s mission journal
• Learn Spanish
• Write
• Share

NOW WHAT

• I WILL sit down and fill out my calander
• I WILL schedule time into my week to do the above
• I WILL pray each day and ask God to help me follow through on the promptings he has given me and ask Him who I can serve each day
• I WILL share my goals with people who care and love me
• I WILL record ways I had courage each day.